Monday, February 02, 2009
The Big Frightening Project
A year ago (!) I signed a contract for the design of the water, sewage, fire protection design and supervision of a rather large and complex multi floor building in an expensive location. By now all the other designs (architecture, structural engineering, electricity, etc.) are all done and approved and I am the last one. I had been avoiding to work on the project because I felt it was too complicated for my capabilities and would take much of my time and also, I may fail. Now it is impossible to keep postponing it and started to work on it. In two hours I understood the problem and solved it. Now all that remains is hard work. Nothing is difficult. I was stupid to be afraid of this project, I underestimated myself. It is surprising that at my age, when I must have about half or less of the number of neurones I was born with, suddenly I discover that am able to do these kind of complex things. I suspect I misspent most of my life, more or less. Because I can do anything I focus my mind on. I dont know. I am so satisfied with myself that am going to bath my neurones in vodka. Crazy.