The exchange rate a year ago was 3.2 shekel to one dollar and now is 3.7. The shekel is once more one of the strongest currencies in the industrialized world, despite dollar purchases by the Bank of Israel.
This phenomenon if of great significance and it is making me relatively better off, yet I cannot find its place within my life. What is its meaning for me? My daughters are starting to visit and to care for each other without my knowledge. Thay are now fully autonomous. I am feeling lonely without them and I cannot integrate all in one meaningful life plan. The death of my mother took out a key element in my mental structure and I have to rebuild myself. I am lost.
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Do you have any unfulfilled goals you still need to work on? On one hand you now have a large void where your children and your mother used to be, but likewise you now have a little more freedom to work on any goals you might have.
Why don't you learn to play an instrument? Or learn to speak a new language? How's your Latin?
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ANON.
Thank you.
You exist now for your people in general, and not (just) specific individuals; when I was recently in Israel, someone pointed out your town and where it was in relation to the borders of your country. Whenever you look over the hills, you are gazing into the abyss, while other people are safe and comfortable. So you are holding the line, and someone has to do it; you could choose to live anywhere, but you chose to live there for a reason.
Also, you exist to provide solutions to specific technical problems, and in so doing you are one of the important few who can maintain our technical civilization; but more abstractly, in so doing you contribute to the Western culture of initiative, thoughtful analysis, and science, and which is the really important gift we pass on to the future. And only some people can use this gift; also your purpose is to have generated these people.
And these things are not always associated with effusive and immediate gratitude, or understanding.
But if any of these things were to fail decisively, there truly would be no point to your existence. You will not let this happen; this is the meaning of your life, at least as it appears to this observer.
Anon.
"The death of my mother took out a key element in my mental structure and I have to rebuild myself."
No offense, but isn't that a typical Jewish mother complex? Sorry about your loss though, hope you feel better soon.
Is it typical? Probably it is. I never pretended to be special, unique.
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